Tiring

Just wanna cry today. Much problems. I am tired with it. I need more rest, more holidays to make my mind fresh. Hmmmm i have to change some wrong with my self to be better. But i dont know what can i do. Where i have to start. Who will help me. Who will make me strong when someone hurts me. Dont sow seed crimes, i swear you'll be feel what you did. 

To change something that hard, need more times

Just because something wrong that can make you lose your friends

Just because we dislike something thats not mean you can dispose it because you will need what you disposed

Anyone can said anything to me but they dont know what i feel. Is that hurt me. Is that make me down. They dont know. They just know i am false and they are right

To stay in the hard condition, that is so hard

Sometimes i wanna back what happen on the past. I remembered about Widhi, about my parent, about my another bestfriend in Junior High School. I want i can make stupid joke with widhi. He can make me cry, happy, angry. I need him to make me strong in this condition now.

No one knows what i feel today

Anyone can said with easier when i am false without know what i feel. Thats hurt for me

I need a true bestfriend who can help me to change my self. Who cant hurt me when she said something wrong with me

Respected

Haiiiii...
Mau posting tentang seminggu ini deh. Hmmmmm more experiences on this week. Dimulai dari hari Senin, Selasa, Rabu yang terus terusan masih galau gara gara "mas yang sedikit manis" hehe. 
Kamis sekolah dan masih dalam keadaan yang galau gitu hehe, terus "a devil" entry my mind. Jadinya bolos sekolah. Bukan bolos sih tapi cabut. Dari jam 10 sampai jam 3 tepat pulang sekolah. Bolosnya sih karaokean sama anak anak. Ada 6 tersangka nih. Cabut dari sekolah itu juga gak mudah loh ternyata. Harus mengelabui para satpam juga kan. Usai acara bolos membolos itu. 
Hari Jumatnya ada pelajaran wali kelas terus ngecek absen gitu deh. 6 tersangka ini di suruh maju ke depan, di tanya kemana aja kok absennya "A" yaaaah ngibul gitu, terus gak taunya ortu di suruh ke sekolah  hari Sabtunya. Udah yang kayak habis di gebukin aja. Syok lah pasti. Cabut baru pertama aja langsung ketauan. Langsung ngabarin Ayah, terus dapet omelan begitulah. Selayaknya orang tua yang kehilangan kepercayaan buat anaknya.
Sabtu malem, izin buat dateng ke acara ulang tahunnya Bee. Sweet seventeen yaaah terus dia kan sahabat ku banget, mau gak dateng juga gak enak. Maksa gitu. Ngerayu pakek acara nangis segala dan tetep gak di izinin. Setelah melalui waktu yang menurut aku panjang dan membuat mata bengkak karena nangis. Akhirnya di bolehin. 
Yang bikin berkesan? 
Jangan pernah bikin kepercayaan orang tua hilang ke anak.
Di tangisin Mamanya Bee karena aku gak bisa dateng. Dan setelah bikin surprice di birthday party nya Bee di pelukin sama Mamanya Bee. I feel so respected what Bee's Mom to do. 
Bee keliatan marah dan kesel gitu. Di kira aku ngibul. Gak ngerti aja dia gimana susahnya minta izin terus nangis nangis karena gak bisa dateng ke ultahnya terus bikin kado dan surprise buat dia. But thats not problem, cause i dont wanna she knows what i do. I just wanna she knows what i do without i tell her. 
Whatever that happens on this week i have more experiences and made me have a good mind, responsibility and many more.